Where I'm At....

Well, I cannot tell a lie...I have spent the last few days trying to catch up on my reading.  I am going to totally blame it on this weather that we are having.  Rainy, wet, a little chilly.  I'm so tired when I go to bed at night and seems like I am tired when I wake up.  Needless to say, I have not stuck with my early morning time with God and I can tell the difference.

One thing that has really jumped out at me so far in this book, is that there are other women out there that struggle with the same things I do.  I am not alone.  I mean, I know I am not alone and that God is always with me, but that I am not alone or isolated in the feelings that I may be having about being a wife, mother, sister, friend, coworker or whatever role I choose to play that day.

  I have a 2 hour commute everyday and let me tell you something, that is an awful lot of time for that darn devil to creep into your thoughts and mess everything up.  Some days he has me so fired up by the time I get home, my poor husband doesn't stand a chance.  At first I thought I was crazy.  I mean, I would actually take a conversation that I had 2 days ago (that I was feeling good about) and by the time I analyzed it and dissected it...Wow!!  That is pretty much all I can say, Wow!!  It was and has been so frustrating for me, but it was nice to read Tracie's take on it and how the same things can and do happen to other women.  In the past week, that has brought me some comfort.  Plus, now I try to fill my commute with GOOD music that makes you sing at the top of your lungs;)

Another wonderful thing that I have learned in this bible study is how to verse map.  Until OBS, I had never even heard of it.  But now, I am like a girl scout selling cookies...I can't get enough of it.  I map a verse, toss it aside and am yelling 'NEXT"...like there is some sort of production line and someone is there to hand me the next one!!  It is crazy, but I love it.

I have had a lot of ups and downs in my life, but in the last 8 weeks I feel like maybe I just might make it.  That maybe I am a lot stronger than I think I am.  I think I knew it all along, I just forgot where to find the strength and to stop trying to do it all by myself. 

Exodus 15:2

The Voice (VOICE)

² The Eternal is my strength and my song,
and He has come to save me;
He is my God, and I will praise Him.
He is the God of my father, and I will exalt Him.